Does this ever get any fucking better?

Long story short, yes it does.

But long story long. Yes, it does, then it doesn’t, then it does, then it doesn’t. What I am trying to say is that it’s a journey. Just like all journeys, there are some really cool parts that you definitely don’t want to miss and other times you would just prefer if you could teleport through. If you are asking me right now if it gets any fucking better? Then my guess is you are in the real thick shitty part. You are waist deep in a mental health shit bog. It stinks, you are tired, and everyone else seems to be walking around the bog as if they don’t see you. Good news my friend it doesn’t get worse than this! So odds are it will definitely get better.

This doesn’t help you right now I know. But there are some things that can help you immediately. The thing is your brain is sending you batshit crazy messages that aren’t helpful, and are making things worse. You can’t see the light of day because everything is out of whack. Now I am assuming that you have been to see a doctor already, but if you haven’t then read this.

These tips are when you are having a…I am so FUCKING over this moment! Because as much as you don’t want to hear this you got to ride it out. If you are feeling catatonic (ie suicidal you gotta make that call to Lifeline 0800 543 354 or a friend immediately). Otherwise, I have a list of things that I can do when I am feeling a bit rat shit. They don’t help me feel entirely better. But they help me kill time. They are things I like to do, that doesn’t take much energy, and cost very little if any money. These activities distract my mind away from all those negative messages that are being sent my way. They help me focus on something else and 9/10 times help me through to the “ok I’m out of that shitty bog, I can still smell shit on my shoes but this is more doable”.

This is my list:

Baking, taking a long hot bath, watching mindless funny crap on T.V. – like the Big Bang Theory, reading a book, writing, walking the dog – if I can make it outside, looking at Pinterest.

It’s not a long list, there isn’t anything spectacular about it. But that is the perfectness of it. It is easy to do. You don’t want to have anything complicated to organise when you are feeling like arse. Things that you will notice are absent from this list are: drinking alcohol, smoking weed, taking drugs, gambling and having sex with random people. I don’t really need to explain why these don’t make the cut, do I? You are mentally ill, not stupid. But just in case someone is reading this who hasn’t come across a pamphlet somewhere on their Wellness 101 journey. None of those things are good for you and will wreak havoc on your life. Although, they may feel good in the moment the aftermath is going to be way worse than that shit bog you were in….and now I am just going to step down from my pedestal. I don’t like to spend too much time up there it makes me feel a little light headed. It’s also very lonely and cold.

So to wrap up this short, long story. Yes, it will get better. But you have to find some strategies or activities to help you through those really tough times.

What things do you like to do when you are feeling well that doesn’t take much energy or money? Write a list, and reach for it next time you are feeling like you are wading through the stench of lost souls.

If you are worried about your or someone else’s mental health, the best place to get help is your GP or local mental health provider. However, if you or someone else is in danger or endangering others, call police immediately on 111.
• LIFELINE: 0800 543 354 (available 24/7)
• SUICIDE CRISIS HELPLINE: 0508 828 865 (0508 TAUTOKO) (available 24/7)
• YOUTHLINE: 0800 376 633
• NEED TO TALK? Free call or text 1737 (available 24/7)
• KIDSLINE: 0800 543 754 (available 24/7)
• WHATSUP: 0800 942 8787 (1pm to 11pm)

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